oof im feelin this as well lately ._.

i honestly think it’s dietary.

my mood used to lapse into crashes like this when i used to eat stuff that’s bad for me.

every time i eat a lot of carbs and/or sugar, this is liable to happen, and this past week has been rather ‘excessive’ on the indulgences…

last weekend i visited my friends in another state and i let myself cut loose and eat whatever. and it was lovely while it was going on. but now that i have to readjust to get back on the nutrition plan that was having good results for me, i’m having a little bit of a hard time.

upshot is,

hormones do lots of stuff aside from just the most obvious things they do. and in my case, it alters my mood in ouchy ways. i get insecure like this and start to feel increasingly sensitive to detrimental ideations. kinda … lowkey baader-meinhof phenomenon / frequency illusion but for badfeels and badthoughts. just having them on my mind makes them louder.

…

anywho,

you are loved sis

i would totally hug you a lot