Hate you? No, never!

oof im feelin this as well lately ._.

i honestly think it’s dietary.

my mood used to lapse into crashes like this when i used to eat stuff that’s bad for me.

every time i eat a lot of carbs and/or sugar, this is liable to happen, and this past week has been rather ‘excessive’ on the indulgences…

last weekend i visited my friends in another state and i let myself cut loose and eat whatever. and it was lovely while it was going on. but now that i have to readjust to get back on the nutrition plan that was having good results for me, i’m having a little bit of a hard time.

upshot is,

hormones do lots of stuff aside from just the most obvious things they do. and in my case, it alters my mood in ouchy ways. i get insecure like this and start to feel increasingly sensitive to detrimental ideations. kinda … lowkey baader-meinhof phenomenon / frequency illusion but for badfeels and badthoughts. just having them on my mind makes them louder.

…

anywho,

you are loved sis

i would totally hug you a lot

randomly

Not randomly, no. With cause and purpose.

Do… do we want headpats, its that what is happening here?

I randomly hate me

I don’t like you anymore. I randomly decided to love you.

this is a secret plot to get people to go subscribe to the vocaloid sub I’ve been posting to recently. Im an evil genius hehehehe

You hear stories of parents paying for someone to be friends with someone else, it’s always in the back of my head

It worked :3

I don’t hate you just so you know ฅ^>⩊< ฅ