Wheeeeee painful loneliness depression spiral.

Anxiety and trust issues keep me from even thinking about starting a relationship but it still fuckin hurts.

Thats easy, just pop the spicy pillow in the laptop!

faints in terror dramatically

Sometimes the Hard Reset hammer isn’t enough

For these times, we have Harder reset.

I uhh… maybe once I’ve gotten some meds to help my hair out a bit. Its kinda thinning and making me sad atm. 😕

Oooh, i never even considered that aspect; desire for E has intensified (despite it not being particularly feasible for me ATM; working in fixing that within a year tho!)

The body pillow lacks both warmth and the ability to hug me back 🥲

poke

Lap kitty! :D

waves hi Una!

ASD and ADHD both feel like a dangerous diagnosis to have on record with Mr Brainworms in play. Its fucked up that our existence can be politicized and used against us 😐

Still, its causing me a great deal more stress and depression to not deal with it. Id like to actually be able to start things in my life, and not just passively exist. Actually play my steam catalog on the pc i just built instead of just watching youtube and anime

Gloves

Thanks! And yeah, my reaction to stimulants is abnormal: energy drink = relaxed (i still like them tho), something warm like coffee puts me out like a light. Had a childhood ADHD diagnosis but any/all medical records from back then might as well not exist.

I’m working on getting an adult diagnosis for ADHD now haha, first major appointment is next week.

Literally just learned these two things tonight that explain so damn much

https://neurolaunch.com/adhd-sitting-weird/

https://www.healthline.com/health/fitness/postural-sway-adhd

I’ve generally heard it referred to as the “ADHD walk”, myself. My hands generally take the worst of it; if anything i feel like I’m a little too spacially aware of the rest of my body

tries to strut down hallway, immediately whacks hand on doorknob hard enough to hear

grabs hand and leans over in pain, accidently headbutting the wall

That sounds so damn nice

Warm snoozy cuddles 🥰

We have two hands for a reason

Excellent, i now feel adequately supervised.